Todays the day.. The day ive been dreading for the past year

Today, i go with my mom to pick up my dad. Im scared, nervous, confused. My mind is running through so many memories, and things that could happen when he gets out. Whats he going to be like? Whats he going to say to me? What do i say to him… Do i hug him? What if i cry… Is it okay to cry? Is it okay to not ever talk to him again after this… I dont know what to do. As pathetic as this all sounds, im just lost. Simply and completely lost. I dont know who to talk to. I dont know if i should even talk to anyone. This is going to happen whether i like it or not, my dad is getting out today. At 11pm tonight, ill be in the car, buckling my seat belt, and on my way to get this man i supposedly call my dad. Here we go….