Todays the day.. The day ive been dreading for the past year

Today, i go with my mom to pick up my dad. Im scared, nervous, confused. My mind is running through so many memories, and things that could happen when he gets out. Whats he going to be like? Whats he going to say to me? What do i say to him… Do i hug him? What if i cry… Is it okay to cry? Is it okay to not ever talk to him again after this… I dont know what to do. As pathetic as this all sounds, im just lost. Simply and completely lost. I dont know who to talk to. I dont know if i should even talk to anyone. This is going to happen whether i like it or not, my dad is getting out today. At 11pm tonight, ill be in the car, buckling my seat belt, and on my way to get this man i supposedly call my dad. Here we go….

That happened to me these past couple days. No one noticed. I posted about it on twitter and facebook. And ya know what got there attention? When i threatened not to help any of them next time they needed it. Then some people started asking about it. I needed someone anyone yesterday i pretty much begged and it took threatening to not help them in their time of need to notice me. It shouldnt take that much for my own FRIENDS to notice when i am in need of someone. My closest friends never said a damn thing either…. Why do i try and help others? Seriously. I shouldnt.. Because when i need it your all to busy. Im so sick of it.