One word. Means so much. But yet i question if it exists. Does this feeling really exist?
Does it really last? This thign called love. I question it every day. Every night. Why must it be so complicated? I just feel like im a hopelss case when it comes to love.. I start having feelings for someone and they show it back but then suddenly drop me off the face of the earth. It sucks because then im constantly expecting the worst out of guys. I mean i guess its better to just not get your hopes up then to get your hopes up and have them crushed. Wither way im still hurt. You think everythings great but then it all comes crashing down.
XOXOXO <3 brittnee
Love is pretty weird. It does exist, but it's not out there just floating around waiting for you to run into it. It doesn't come around unless you ask it. And it also doesn't stick around unless you ask it to.
ReplyDeleteUnfortunately, as you've found out, you also can't make another person love you back. Well, I'm not sure that's unfortunate, but it is often hurtful.
In general, humans aren't very good at commitment. It requires a lot of effort. We go running after a guy or girl, and once we "get" them (whether it be dating, or marriage), we stop trying. At that instant, the relationship starts to die. There is a reason that farming and care for the land is called "husbandry" - because in order to sustain a relationship, it requires careful tending, a lot of effort, learning, and realizing that there will be times when everything doesn't go the way you want, but you can't just walk away from it, or it will die.
One of the tough things about love, is that it requires equal commitment from both sides for it to be healthy, and to not destroy one or the other person. People like that are out there, and sometimes people who aren't like that in High School turn out to be like that later in life. Sometimes it just requires, at the beginning, two people making a conscious, serious decision at the beginning to stay together no matter what. In any case, it requires re-making that decision over and over again.
I'm excited to see your life move along, and see you meet and fall in love with a guy who is willing to make the decision to be with you every day, no matter what that requires of him. As a guy, I can say that I love being in that position.
Also, excited for you guys to be up in Portland - we have so much still to show you! :)
I really really like that :)
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