This should be easy... NOT. What am i supposed to say exactly on here?
Hmm So basically Im this 17 year old girl who has had a hard life. I live with my grandmother who is just not the nicest person in the world. She is at the age where everything makes her angry, and she always thinks your doing something wrong. Yay, i know right? No. Well anyway my father is in jail and will be in there till august. Nothing new to me. His been in jail all my life off and on and i didnt even meet him till i was in the fifth grade. So its not like i REALLY knew him. My mom is in a drug recovery house :) This is a very good thing. Shes recovering from her drug problems. This means alot to me. I never got to know my real parents and i dont mean they arent my real parents but i mean i never knew the REAL them. I knew them on drugs. I still dont know my dad for real, i am just now getting to know the real mom. The real mom is better then the mom on drugs! The real mom is the sweetest person i know, she cares about her kids more then anything, Drugs don't matter and she has goals in her life. But you see this man i am supposed to call dad, really isnt. He signs all my cards as Shawn, No not dad, Shawn. Talking to him is like talking to a new person, like meeting the new kid. Awkward and a lot of silence. He just doesnt understand me and my life. He hasnt been there for it so how can he? He can surely try though, that would be nice. Anyway, I have a sister and a brother. I know its rude of me to say but i dont favor my sister. She is loud and rude. When i try to connect with her she uses it against me. Ill try and talk to her about life and she'll rat me out for the things that ive said. I try and joking around with her and she cant take a joke. Hence why ive quit trying! I have a brother, Who is so adorable!! Hes thee cutest child ive ever seen :) He has an attitude but he's 2 so what can i expect right? If youve wondered where my grandpa fits into this well ill tell you. My grandpa died last year, He, in my mind was the only person who believed in me and understood me. He never accused me of doing terrible things i wasnt doing. He encouraged me to do my best, to graduate, to be the greatest person i could ever be. Now that he's gone its hard to be happy and motivated. But i am. I am doing this for not only me but my grandfather. Life isnt the same but i have to stay strong. <3
Other then my family life im generally a fun person to be around. I am very loving i guess you could say. Maybe to loving in some ways. I have lots of friends whom except me for me. My current best best friend is Carmen Fraijo. She is the reason i have a religion. She has made me see god :) I dont know what i'd do with out her honestly. We have so much fun when hanging out! Its crazy! haha. I have other best friends to :) Sierra Thompson, Tonya Young, Alycia Riley, Jeff Camerena, Nick Estis, and even Grant Henderson (even though drama has happened). They all mean so much to me. Now theres a few other people in my life who mean the world to me. Daniel Rodriguez, You sir, are amazing. I feel so completely comfortable around you. I can tell you anything and you wont judge me. You cheer me up through the hard times, and show me good music :) I am thankful to haev you as a friend. Jovan Carston, where do i begin. You are so absolutly fantastic, i cant even think of words to explain you. You get it all. You may be busy and unable to talk alot but i still love you :) You let me make fun of your accent, You laugh with me and help me through those dumb life problems i have. You mustn't leave my life.
anyway now that ive lagged you all on... Thats me in a nut shell :)
XOXOX <3
-Brittnee
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